It's been a long day. I've been like dead tired all day, so I haven't been the best I could've been. So like during school I mostly zoned out during my off period, when I was "hanging out" with people. Then I got kind of pissed at the world after I took the gifted and talented test today (which was required for the whole school, but not announced until yesterday). So I went to pay for the PSAT at Rocky, and it was really cold, and I parked wrong. Then I ran into a couple of my friends, when I'd really been hoping not to run into anyone, because I just felt very out of it, and not myself. But it happened. Then I came home, and as soon as I came in my mom told me that we were going shopping. At this point I was already pissed because my plan had been to be home by 10, at the very very latest, so I could make cookies, and work on an essay, and maybe get to some math homework, while watching Wallander...but instead it was after 11, and we were leaving.
I wasn't super pissed that we were going though. We were going to JCPenny's, to look for a shirt for my brother (the stunning duo competitor for forensics), and we ended up looking at some clothes. I tried on some dresses, but then it was sort of sour because I didn't get to try on the dress I'd wanted to try on, and then all of the other ones I tried on didn't look good. And it made me feel sad again about homecoming (more on that later). And my mom thought I was pissed at her, but I wasn't. I was just tired. And zoned out. So we came home, and she went to a meeting. I made cookies, like I'd wanted, but then my dad came home, and interrupted my plans of watching YouTube videos and listening to Chameleon Circuit/Imagine Dragons (my "My Cold Thursday Playlist"). After he left, and I stuck the first batch of cookies in, I legitimately broke down crying. Today didn't go how I'd wanted it to, and I just felt terrible. And that continued for a good hour.
Then my mom and brother came home, and my mom told me that I had hurt her feelings by making her feel like I didn't really want to be spending time with her. And now I'm just at the point where I'm insanely sick of today and I just want to go to sleep. Because I'm so tired, and I just feel like crying about everything.
Today wasn't even a bad day, overall. It was really fun to go to JCPenny's, and look at clothes. I just...feel a little depressed, and I've been more tired today than I've been in a long time. Even chocolate chip cookies didn't help.
But we're making homemade pizzas for dinner, and maybe we'll watch something fun. And at the very least, I have sleeping later to look forward to. And tomorrow. Tomorrow should be good. Better, anyway.